Ihana, a woman with so many descriptions, serious, shy, demure, smiley, miss posture, they even call her nun, and many more. Lived in a home with family oriented people and a family of faith. This Ihana can see her self as a flower that defines beauty as love for oneself. She’s a blue rose that colors the heavens where there is pure love and everlasting happiness. How would one define sacrifice that this Ihana can give? Her sacrifices where limited yet they truly made things wonderful because out of her sacrifices, she tend to learn new things, and though hurtful, still they were helpful.
This fragile being made her life bounded with troubles her heart and mind can carry. And though fragile she still can keep her vulnerable being safe from all threats from the outside world she knew all her life. Her world inside where she had been living with peace made her see what’s outside of it for since she had let go of her innocence, she learned that when God created the universe, He created things that always goes together. Good and bad, beautiful and ugly, rich and poor, and other else. With these facts, this Ihana learned living the outside world where troubles come and go, meeting people with different intensions, fake smiles, disappointments, heartbreaks, mistrust, different battles, a lot of them. Yet, Ihana has surpassed all her trials because this vulnerable creation was designed to just fight and win for her self.
Ihana believed that being a blue rose has a great responsibility. Since this blue rose colors the skies where heavens are there, responsibility of taking care and keeping the colors is her task. How ironic that could be? A fragile and vulnerable heart has got to keep heavens singing? What does this mean? Easy, this means that though in trouble, this Ihana must keep her faith high so that even in agony the heavens will still sing in triumph.
Ihana has been fighting a battle. This time, it’s about infidelity. The pain infidelity gave her is again extreme. Ihana was used to have the same extreme pain and she didn’t expect it again came so soon. The same routine, crying at night also even at day time, trying hard sleeping, worries, and heartbreaks. Forgiveness is never an issue, because even before making a mistake, Ihana is ready to forgive. The hardest part about infidelity is how to dedicate the same trust to the one involve with it. Her love is pure and with this imparted pain infidelity has caused, she learned again that pure love goes with unreal. Two things together, again. She learned it before, yet she tried to prove it wrong. She was so happy because she thought she won, and here it goes, her judgment is somehow deteriorating to believing that she’s wrong and what she learned about pure and unreal are right.
Infidelity means disrespect. How would Ihana accept that she was disrespected? And how would she fight for this? This isn’t easy.
Ihana, the blue rose is turning grey. For her this doesn’t mean faith is dying, this only means her faith was being tested. And she believes, she will still win. What about the skies? The heavens? Their triumphs? Grey it may seem outside, but the real color reveals inside. The battle is not yet over. Ihana is fighting for it. Maybe because she made choices already. Choosing to fight for it, choosing love over justice. Because no matter how unpleasant the outside world brought things to her, it still taught her a pleasant thought. Thoughts that over agony love wins, that is because beyond justice is love.
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